Twice Thirteen

by the fifties

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1.
The Start 02:06
2.
Lon Hammond Jr. 03:08
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I know you never cared because you never stared. Funny I realize it right now but I knew it all along. It's strange how someone else now gets to fall for your charms. And I am now someone you used to just say you loved. Out of context it might seem like I'm bitter, I'm not bitter. I just think it is unfair that I'm the victim in my own tale. So just remember everything I did for you, said to you while now meaningless, it was my best but you'll have better You'll get what you gave.
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Twice Thirteen 05:06
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Everything was so wrong I had to leave this place fast. I did not know what kept me going but it felt like hope or a dream of better things. Grateful this happened in summer. The warm air feels so free. Still not feeling too much better but I was excited to see what these days bring. Who she will be. To breathe cleaner air again. Place my hands over my chest. Feel sadness begin to rest. It feels so good to have this hope and know that I'm beginning to cope. What lies around life's corner? I know it's odd but I can feel her. This time is the very last time but she will have the brightest shine.
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Brutus 04:16
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There lays my heart in separate parts. Watch as she acts, weeping now starts. I sit puzzled, reaction-less. How can I mend myself after this? Somehow I am relieved at best, though knots remain inside my chest. I'm told clichés as I start to leave. Truth is too much, lies I won't believe. Laugh to myself on the drive home. Never been so happy to be alone. This is so I can take what I deserve, avoid our lives' continuing curve and just live without you. I can live without you.
5.
Cologne 04:18
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I'm sick of lying to everyone plus me. I don't feel fine, yet I do. I'll run to any arms, to lay, to smile. I can't make her do what I think I need. What that is I won't know even if I find it. I ask too much without a spoken word still there's nothing out there that I deserve. Not cherished but caught inside of a glare.
6.
For Shame 03:53
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So won't you tell me the good I've done? I aimed to be noble but jealousy won. I've glared at strangers, innocent ones and through my heart, burning still runs. Head up, arms down. At least I can't fall further now. At least I can move ahead now. So know I'm sorry but you've wronged too. All that I've done, was because of you. Amazed you walk straight, have the guts to smile and here I blame you for all that is vile. Stop all this blaming, the need is fading. You're not in my way, just shadows from other days. No weight to drown me, red I no longer see. With your presence faded, you can't call me jaded.
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Farhampton 02:09
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After 200 Days 03:14
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Lost the worst side of me when you left. I can now stand straight with lighter chest. I'm learning all I did wrong to the world. Finding space to grow to what I can be. This feeling that I dream to be forever laces my mind with colours I've not seen. This feeling that I dream to be forever places visions of what life could be. The city treated me like a lost ghost and you didn't help at all. I resent you for that. But I am better from everything said, finally feel whole and you're nowhere close. So open your eyes and watch once more as I turn to forget you.
9.
Not So Fast 05:04
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The sun lowers into the ground. Chills surround but my heart stays warm. Your push stays soft and you draw me near. One hand closed the other reaching out. Will you still look my way when this night turns to day and I become a fool to fall with you? Have I lost your interest in between all our words I just feel so at home around you. Take a seat right next to you. See you look at me from the corner of your eye. You smile slightly, begin to turn to me. Suddenly your arms surround me. Together we walk now and it looks OK for me to remain in your life. If only you knew how happy I am for this. Stare in my eyes and say not to speak.
10.
Sewing Machine 03:54
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Patience, it's not hard to break apart. You'll find it when winter freezes us all. Hardly comfy in my own skin she'll change that, December I'll be fine. I don't know what she feels or if there's any room for thoughts of me in her notebook. Pages spread on the floor, the perfect words said just not written down or heard by the right ears. With needle and thread could you stitch me together with you please? And pencil me into days you don't want to spend all by yourself.
11.
The Sea 06:53
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I open my eyes, awake in a daze. Thrown away in many ways. If I could just...well, if I can make this float toward my hand. I would feel warmth again, not unlike the night began. I can spot them. Angels in every room. They're lost in the way they loom. Beat down by the sight of beauty, somehow they can see right through me. I'd give myself to each of you. So quiet, my voice passes through. Lost in this night I'm still true. If you could just know all about me. Can you hear a word I say? I'll try not to get in your way. We are swimming. Fish in a sea. Will someone's line please catch me and pull me out, set me free? Or tangle me so I can't breathe? Now what she does. See how she floats in thin air, no attention to notes. Unaware of the person here. No idea what it is I fear. Bring my heart to life.

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Self-recorded over the course of March 2012 - May 2013

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released June 12, 2013

All songs written and performed by Clint Howard
Thank you to friends, family, and those who inspired the tracks
Special thanks to Nicolino De Francesco

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